I have seen variations on this one for a long time now. And every time it has served to remind me just how fallible man is. How many times has the Bible been re-written, translated, formated to serve the time and places leader? But yet so many seem to think there is no chance it has ever changed over time. After all it was written by God and Jesus themselves… wait hmm wrong there too… They like to forget that the books of the Bible were put together by competing men and then voted into compilation way back in the good ol’ Roman days…
Kinda sounds like the last 8 years or so of our governement, where one group of like minded leaders decided everything to the exculsion of liberal and progressive ideas that would have likely been far more benefitial to the people. But I digress… Read more »
My first reaction is wow… and with tears of appreciation and Joy for what this brave and kind man has done for this country and that he continues to give of himself, to fight for the rights of this country.
I wish that I could shake his hand and look to his eyes just to say thank you, and to tell him just how much it means to have people like him in this world. Read more »
I am sure I have written on this song before, and as mentioned – it just keeps crashing into my life. Tonight was no different. And I wanted to share with my crew here the comment I had for it with my good friend, Heart Song .
The song I am refering to is Hallelujah by Rufus Wainwright:
The response this brought tonight is what follows: Read more »
I set up my profile and added most of the gadgets I have and that were available. Looks like a cool site ot check out new tech and commiserate with others who have similar tech.
The determination to say DAMN IT IM DONE LIVING LIKE THIS. ITS BULLSHIT. AND IT STOPS NOW!
In the previous post I aired a lot of frustration, in the previous week I came perilously close to a permanent decision. Since then I have made it a mission to change this path.
For too many years I have fought the storm that threatens to drown me in tears, and to fry my soul with vicious lightning to my heart. For too many years I have fought the poisoning of my being and fumbled in the dark, stumbling into one pothole after another while skidding down a highway at 3,000 miles per hour with the brakes on! For too many years I have said, “it will pass, just hang on.” “I can do this, I will do this and stay for my friends for my family” “All it would take would be one bottle and it stops, and they can move on and stop worrying about me.” For too many years… Read more »
Its been forever since I have updated this damn thing. And I am really not sure what to say.
There has been so much going on, a visit from my Mom. Then a trip home to help her through surgery and the first few days of recovery. Car repairs out of the blue that are soaring over 700.00 and a couch that wants to collapse under my massive weight. Storm clouds in my head that just won’t go away. A poison lightning strike in my soul that won’t give me peace.
How do you love when you are terrified that you will only hurt the one you want?
How do you love when you are terrified that hurt will drive them away and leave you a crumpled empty shell?
Where does the courage come from to open ones self up – to take the chance – to make the step – the step that lands you in the human race?
How do you know if you are really out of the closet? And if you think you are, then shouldn’t that include the confidence to put ones self out there to find that love instead of hiding in the shadows still terrified... Read more »
With this being the week leading into my birthday my thoughts have invariably turned to my relationships or rather the lack there of.
Another year will have soon passed. And partly to fate and partly to my own insecurites nothing has changed yet again.
In an effort to distract myself I have delved into my iPod and started listening to some older stuff. And this song came along and just bitch slapped me full in the soul. And now I can’t get it out of my head.
From my feelings toward heat…my changes in belief towards religion…and what I fear but am starting to accept as my future.
Johnny Lang is so very talented. And his work with this song is just….The lyrics are below. Or to listen to it click this link. Will try to find a better video when I get home.
“The tar in the street starts to melt from the heat
And the sweats runnin’ down from my hair
I walked 20 miles and I’m dragging my feet
And I’ll walk 20 more I don’t care
And I’ll wander this world, wander this world
Wander this world, wander this world all alone
I’m like a ghost some people can’t see
Others drive by and stare
A shadow that drifts by the side of the road
It’s like I’m not even there
And I’ll wander this world, wander this world
Wander this world, wander this world all alone
Well I’ve never been part of the game
The life that I live is my own
All that I know is that I was born
To wander this world all alone, all alone
Some people are born with their lives all laid out
And all their success is assured
Some people work hard all their lives for nothin’
They take it and don’t say a word
They don’t say a word
Sometimes it’s like I don’t even exist
Even God has lost track of my soul
Why else would he leave me out here like this
To wander this world all alone
And I’ll wander this world, wander this world
Wander this world, wander this world all alone”
I think that all to few times in life we see things that we know are supposed to be art. That was their intention when created. Whether the creation was intended to make money or reach the audience is a different matter.
To me it is very evident when the art is created because it has to come OUT of the artist. You hear the phrase “it is like giving birth” sometimes, and I think that is very true. Because to keep these things in is wrong, dangerous, and bad for not just the artist-but society as a whole.
There are only a handful of songs out there that truly reach inside of me, grab me by the scruff of the soul and RIP the emotions out of me. I don’t fully understand the emotions that come with this even still. But there is something so powerful in this music that I simply can’t not listen to it. Sometimes over and over. And each time, not always the same spot, I will get the uncontrollable shudder, the tears that spring from not my eyes but my soul, a flood of emotion trying to break the surface. Its a scary feeling, but a liberating one as well.
This particular song, Hallelujah by Rufus Wainwright, is one of those songs. I have known it and listened to it for years now and every time it just reaches in – as if to go to my existence in a totally different realm, pull those emotions through and let me feel them completely openly and honestly. Like each version of me affects this me but that I, we, never fully notice or realize it, except in these rare moments.
This piece has some religious overtones to it, and while I am not overly religious at this point in my life, I do still think there are some lessons and ideas we can take away, as with any litterature, and interpert. But in addition I think this song speaks to also the desire to love, the desire and need for that feeling of oneness with someone, the internal struggles we see and experience in life and society even today.
So my request to you is this. Take a moment, weed out all the manufactured art. Think about what TRULY touches you in life, what reaches inside of you makes you experience life in such an intense way, even if only for a split second, and then think about that. Explore it. And while you do that, listen to this song – read the words with an open mind to what they can represent to you. Close your eyes if you feel it, let the song and story carry you. Take down the walls, and open your soul.
